While I watch...

...I think.  I think about the birds and other wild life around here . That despite having no visible means of support they carry on.  They flourish and prosper.  They have lives and families.  Then I think about myself.  About how I have let myself get used and abused in the past.  Some recent news about my job unsettles me.  I think to myself "Why can't I have it as simple as the animals seem to around here?"  I just don't seem to ever fit in anywhere.  It seems to me that people take an instant disliking to me.  Unless I have something of material value to offer them.  Here is a question I frequently pose to myself...Is it fair that other people get to treat me with disrespect in the name of 'just kidding' and yet when I return the same treatment I am being mean?  I don't know what I'm saying here. It's turning into another pity party blog entry.    If you read this go ahead and leave a comment. Maybe I'll benefit from it, maybe not.