So, I'm doing ok With the whole being friends with Eric thing. He hasn't shut me out entirely and that's good!
He and I got to have another long talk on Friday night after they got here. A lot more clarity and a few hugs. And you know what? It's still really nice. I still have a friend and that's great.
They will be here with us for Thanksgiving, he's going to bring a turkey to deep fry! Mmmmmm!!! I will probably also have a ham and need to get on the stick and plan some other menu items....

On the marriage front, well, we're doing ok. Not great, but we have talked about things. Ernie is saying he is going to make more of an effort to take care of himself and lose weight. I hope so, I might be frustrated with him but I don't want him dying before he really should. I figure if we both live to our eighties, then we can have a duel and go out in a poof of old gunpowder and mini-balls. lol We both have had significant losses in the last month or so and to have us both grieving like this is, well, less than optimal. He's still pretty mad at me for talking to my daughter about our problems. I admit to fucking up royally there, because she went and bought me a "toy" from the adult bookstore. I kinda had to tell him why, but not the whole story why.

I remain the imperfect person I was born....alive to conquer yet another day...sigh.